"When they ask me what I liked best, I'll say it was you”

September 2011 October 2011

this is my first post of this blog~ time passes fast, after 10months of pregnancy finally BabyThaddaeus arrive on 19july2011 & he is 2mth1week old alr. Soon he gonna 3mth old and he can see how his mummy&daddy look like :D excited nah~

Suppose to went back to work but end up change my mind le, staying at home be housewife. Only can blame me cause i cant bear to leave Thaddaeus with babysitter (: Finally early of September we alr move out from my in-laws place and finally got a house of ours le. life is peaceful, but not 100% happy staying here as still got 10% unhappy due to inconsiderate neighbour.

Sometime i can feel that baby loves me but sometime i totally cant feel at all, we had been quarreling almost everyweek. Because of Thaddaeus stuff, house stuff & his attitude. when i'm alone at home with Thaddaeus at home in the afternoon, i will be thinking of it is really when baby wants me back so he will be damn sweet/nice/no attitude towards me? when i'm back with him all this is gone, all left is his bad attitude. Wanna talk some sense to him but he seem to be cant accepting the fact or what, say abit and he will start showing his that kind of attitude le. i really scare and hope our marriage life will not ended with only habit&rely left, no more love exist.

I only wish that baby could change back to how he use to be, not like now but i guess is difficult ba?!This is the only place that i could pour out all my feeling that i kept in my heart.

9 more days left to my 22nd birthday, and i no longer looking forward to it like how i use to. dunno why also.

Alright got to feed Thaddaeus le, will update soon again(: